Two milestone hit today!
1) I woke up with big dark circles under my eyes for the first time in my life. Yay?
2) Joshua found his wiener during his bath! Started tugging on it and smacking it with a big ol' grin on his face. lol. I couldn't stop laughing. Mike was totally horrified.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Joshua
I always wanted to be a mom. But now that I am I am amazed that it happened. Not in a bad way, don't get me wrong. I love my baby and I love the relationship we are developing. But at least 5 times a day I look at him and think, "Holy shit, how the hell am I a mom?" And other times I think, "How did I manage to get such a god damn great kid?" Because he is. We really lucked out and he is a great baby.
I think part of my problem is I am convinced that he wouldn't be here if my dad hadn't died last year. He died suddenly, March 9th 2010. Just a month or so later I was pregnant. It could have happened at any point before then, but it didn't. People kept saying ridiculous things to me like, "Your father helped you get pregnant in heaven." Which aside from being insane is truly creepy. I don't think my dad had anything to do with it. I think I got lazy. But either way, Joshua wouldn't be here if my dad still was. And that is something I am having a hard time getting past.
Thankfully that doesn't change how much I adore him. He is an amazing little bundle of cuteness and wonder.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Hubs
When Mike and I were in Las Vegas this past August we renewed our vows in a super private ceremony. I just found what he said to me and I want to post it in case I lose the paper it is written down on.
"Throughout the hardships in my life, I always wondered why this was happening to me. What was going to happen to me to make it all worth it? What was going to justify the pain...
And then we kissed, and that answer started to become apparent. I was soon to realize it was going to be justified as I was to receive more love then I could ever imagine.
I promise to forever love you, protect you, cherish you, hold you, and dedicate myself to you.
I love you more than you will ever know."
"Throughout the hardships in my life, I always wondered why this was happening to me. What was going to happen to me to make it all worth it? What was going to justify the pain...
And then we kissed, and that answer started to become apparent. I was soon to realize it was going to be justified as I was to receive more love then I could ever imagine.
I promise to forever love you, protect you, cherish you, hold you, and dedicate myself to you.
I love you more than you will ever know."
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Friday, November 20, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
A phone conversation I could have lived without
My friend Joshua sent me an email today asking about his ex. We had lost touch of each other and hadn't spoken in about a year or so. His ex passed away from cancer around Thanksgiving time. Joshua didn't know. I had to call him tonight to tell him. I'm still feeling a little shaky.
Bike!
I bought a bike from an awesome lady last night (Thanks Jame!) Rode it about a half a block to confirm I wouldn't immediately face-plant, since the last time I rode a bike I was 14. Did not fall. I'm a little wobbly, and I forgot how to modestly get OFF a bike. But I'll figure it all out.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Stephane Rolland
My new favorite designer is Stephane Rolland. I came across his work for the first time today, and man is it inspiring! I'm currently in the middle of watching his Couture Spring/Summer 2009 collection and it is amazing. The amount of detail that goes into every piece is insane. I think my favorite thing about this collection is how intricacy meets minimalism. He only uses black, white, gray and red, and only one color per garment. Most of the lines are direct and simple. At least that is how they look from far away. But then from up close the garment simply explodes with fine details.
You can watch the show at his site: www.stephanerolland.com It is like an explosion of goodies for your eyes!
You can watch the show at his site: www.stephanerolland.com It is like an explosion of goodies for your eyes!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
But, but, but... NOOOOOO *sob*
Mike got a call this morning from a recruiter. Offering him a six week job in New York.
He wanted to take it immediately. I wanted him to turn it down immediately. Six weeks is too long. And I know how these projects go. They never take the time they say. So six weeks will really be more like 2 months. BOOOOO.
I obviously have deep rooted abandonment issues stemming from the job my dad had when we were kids. And I always swore I'd never marry a guy who traveled for work. But the money is really good, and we'd be nuts to turn it down. At least that is his logic. I don't think it is enough money to make that time apart worth it. We spend nearly every second together and I'm still not tired of him. Buuut, I also know I can't stop him from taking it. I mean, I COULD, but it wouldn't be fair. He really wants to go. It will open more doors for him, and he'll get so many new contacts. And he has never been to New York as an adult.
So my compromise is this:
1) He is only to take ONE trip a year.
2) That trip may be NO LONGER then 2 months, or I'm coming with him for the entire trip.
3) When we have kids, he can't leave me for that long. no f-ing way.
4) If the trip is 6 weeks, then I'm going to visit him for 1-2 weeks in the middle of his trip. This way we don't have to be separated for nearly as long. Hell, I don't have a 9-5 job keeping me here. I might as well take advantage of that! Plus, I've never been to New York as an adult either. And I have a bunch of very close friends who I'd LOVE to see.
The sucky thing? He might have to be there Monday. As in this upcoming Monday. As in 5 days from now. Thanks for the advance notice! Yeesh. Otherwise he might be going at the end of July. Which will muck up our Vegas plans. (Not break them, just confuse them.)
Joe has graciously offered to help us turn our frowns upside down by driving him to New York. Hence making this a fun road trip journey. I'd go with of course and we could photo/video document it for fun. Heck maybe we could even visit some fun places along the way? Who knows? The road will be our bitch!!
He wanted to take it immediately. I wanted him to turn it down immediately. Six weeks is too long. And I know how these projects go. They never take the time they say. So six weeks will really be more like 2 months. BOOOOO.
I obviously have deep rooted abandonment issues stemming from the job my dad had when we were kids. And I always swore I'd never marry a guy who traveled for work. But the money is really good, and we'd be nuts to turn it down. At least that is his logic. I don't think it is enough money to make that time apart worth it. We spend nearly every second together and I'm still not tired of him. Buuut, I also know I can't stop him from taking it. I mean, I COULD, but it wouldn't be fair. He really wants to go. It will open more doors for him, and he'll get so many new contacts. And he has never been to New York as an adult.
So my compromise is this:
1) He is only to take ONE trip a year.
2) That trip may be NO LONGER then 2 months, or I'm coming with him for the entire trip.
3) When we have kids, he can't leave me for that long. no f-ing way.
4) If the trip is 6 weeks, then I'm going to visit him for 1-2 weeks in the middle of his trip. This way we don't have to be separated for nearly as long. Hell, I don't have a 9-5 job keeping me here. I might as well take advantage of that! Plus, I've never been to New York as an adult either. And I have a bunch of very close friends who I'd LOVE to see.
The sucky thing? He might have to be there Monday. As in this upcoming Monday. As in 5 days from now. Thanks for the advance notice! Yeesh. Otherwise he might be going at the end of July. Which will muck up our Vegas plans. (Not break them, just confuse them.)
Joe has graciously offered to help us turn our frowns upside down by driving him to New York. Hence making this a fun road trip journey. I'd go with of course and we could photo/video document it for fun. Heck maybe we could even visit some fun places along the way? Who knows? The road will be our bitch!!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck You
oh my gosh I am so frustrated. Torn between calling my lawyer and handling this myself with my baseball bat.
Just a thought
I wonder if I'll be the type of mom who tells her daughter she would be so much prettier with some makeup.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Terminator: Salvation
Mike and I saw Terminator Salvation tonight. My thoughts:
I thought it was great. Really. It was the first time they've gone into the future, and I thought they did a good job.
HOWEVER.... (SERIOUS SPOILERS AHEAD!! DON'T LOOK IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW THE ENDING)
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WHY THE FUCK DID THEY LET THE ONE GUY WHO HAS A GOOD SHOT AT HELPING THEM BEAT SKYNET GIVE UP HIS HEART!?!?!? WTF WERE THEY THINKING WHEN THEY WROTE THE ENDING?!?!?!
Honestly, I'm completely alright with letting everything else go. The nuclear blast that should have disintegrated them all? whatever. The heart transplant surgery in the middle of the desert? whatever. The hundred other completely cheesy and implausible and obvious things that happened? Whatever. But that ending really pissed me off. Imagine how much better the next movie would be with Marcus and John running the show together. But nooooo. They had to make a martyr out of him. Lame.
I thought it was great. Really. It was the first time they've gone into the future, and I thought they did a good job.
HOWEVER.... (SERIOUS SPOILERS AHEAD!! DON'T LOOK IF YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW THE ENDING)
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WHY THE FUCK DID THEY LET THE ONE GUY WHO HAS A GOOD SHOT AT HELPING THEM BEAT SKYNET GIVE UP HIS HEART!?!?!? WTF WERE THEY THINKING WHEN THEY WROTE THE ENDING?!?!?!
Honestly, I'm completely alright with letting everything else go. The nuclear blast that should have disintegrated them all? whatever. The heart transplant surgery in the middle of the desert? whatever. The hundred other completely cheesy and implausible and obvious things that happened? Whatever. But that ending really pissed me off. Imagine how much better the next movie would be with Marcus and John running the show together. But nooooo. They had to make a martyr out of him. Lame.
Monday, June 1, 2009
WOW
A friend just told me something that prompted me to immediately blurt out, "holy nutfucker on a shit-stick, wow"
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Catastrophic
1: the final event of the dramatic action especially of a tragedy
2: a momentous tragic event ranging from extreme misfortune to utter overthrow or ruin
3 a: a violent and sudden change in a feature of the earth b: a violent usually destructive natural event (as a supernova)
4: utter failure : fiasco
2: a momentous tragic event ranging from extreme misfortune to utter overthrow or ruin
3 a: a violent and sudden change in a feature of the earth b: a violent usually destructive natural event (as a supernova)
4: utter failure : fiasco
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Today is a day just like any day
Mike and I have been on the most insane schedule lately. We stay up very late, and then sleep late. It is completely screwing me up. I feel completely unmotivated, which is NOT GOOD. Especially considering the sheer number of business I have to keep up with. Kayla's Blessing is doing alright, but it is my biggest constant source of frustration. But, it is also my biggest business, so I suppose that makes sense. TGON is stagnant. There are things to be done, but I need help. Which brings me to the issue that my partner hasn't rea;;y done anything yet. She came over and we talked about things, wrote up a partner agreement, made decisions... But since then I haven't heard anything from her about TGON. I was giving her space for a while because she said she was overwhelmed. But that was months ago, and I'm wondering if she even wants to do this anymore. I know I just need to talk to her about it. And I will... BeadNeed is going well. We had our first sale a few weeks ago and the customer gave us a GLOWING feedback. YAY! I have tons more beads and charms and pendents to post, but it gets a little expensive. :) So I'm pacing myself.
My screen printing class was GREAT! Aside from the fact that I was super SICK and felt like I was going to pass out/throw up the whole time. But the class itself was fantastic. I love the shirts I came home with. I just wish I had brought some men's t-shirts with me so Mike could have some. But I still have the screen that has the "Hello, my name is: Schminor-Minor" and the "Hello, my name is: Snoodles" so all I need is some fabric paint, and a scooper-squeegie thing.
This weekend is Matt's community garage sale/BBQ so we'll be hanging in A-Town for a few days. I'm looking forward to going, but why must I ALWAYS have my period when we go out there? It is like a curse.
The band is progressing. We've been in the studio off and on since April. Virtually everything is recorded. Just a few more vocals need to be done, and then it all gets mixed/mastered and then POOF! We have a demo. Who is excited?? I am!
Our next show is May 22. We performing with a burlesque group called VarieTease. It will be an interesting show for a few reasons. First off, we are basically the house band for a burlesque show. Second, we are playing two 15 minute sets, as opposed to one half hour set. Third, Karla will not be there. So I'm going to attempt to sing her parts. Keith is coming over tomorrow and we will be practicing our vocals together. Some things will need to be reworked. I am no Karla. I do not have her range. Or her powerhouse voice. But I love our songs, and I love what I'm doing, so I'm sure it will be alright!
And tonight's plan, is to knock out a few new necklaces. So I'm going to go do that!
My screen printing class was GREAT! Aside from the fact that I was super SICK and felt like I was going to pass out/throw up the whole time. But the class itself was fantastic. I love the shirts I came home with. I just wish I had brought some men's t-shirts with me so Mike could have some. But I still have the screen that has the "Hello, my name is: Schminor-Minor" and the "Hello, my name is: Snoodles" so all I need is some fabric paint, and a scooper-squeegie thing.
This weekend is Matt's community garage sale/BBQ so we'll be hanging in A-Town for a few days. I'm looking forward to going, but why must I ALWAYS have my period when we go out there? It is like a curse.
The band is progressing. We've been in the studio off and on since April. Virtually everything is recorded. Just a few more vocals need to be done, and then it all gets mixed/mastered and then POOF! We have a demo. Who is excited?? I am!
Our next show is May 22. We performing with a burlesque group called VarieTease. It will be an interesting show for a few reasons. First off, we are basically the house band for a burlesque show. Second, we are playing two 15 minute sets, as opposed to one half hour set. Third, Karla will not be there. So I'm going to attempt to sing her parts. Keith is coming over tomorrow and we will be practicing our vocals together. Some things will need to be reworked. I am no Karla. I do not have her range. Or her powerhouse voice. But I love our songs, and I love what I'm doing, so I'm sure it will be alright!
And tonight's plan, is to knock out a few new necklaces. So I'm going to go do that!
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Screen Printing
I'm taking a screen printing class Sunday and I'm so excited for it!! It is four hours (I know. Really long.) from 2-6 in the city. Argh! So excited! So many exciting things this week! Nicole's birthday, screen printing and then Flight Of The Concords!!
I have to bring 4 black and white images to class. Also they can't be printed on an inkjet which is what I have. So I'll have to find a laser printer or go to kinkos and use a photocopier.
I have to bring 4 black and white images to class. Also they can't be printed on an inkjet which is what I have. So I'll have to find a laser printer or go to kinkos and use a photocopier.
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